Still Up In The Clouds
Today, so far, has been a good day. Part of me feels like my head is still up in the clouds. It could still be the rush from my book, My Bipolar Mind: You’re not alone, coming out, but I believe the reason I am also feeling so light-hearted has to do with the fact that my publisher decided to take on the new book I pitched to them. I am so excited because this next book goes beyond blog posts and is a story I actually wrote about 14 years ago. It is a bit outdated, but they seem to have liked the pitch and I feel so honored and blessed to be working with Eliezer Tristan Publishing again for this next book! With everything positive that has been going on, I am sitting here waiting for the crash because I know it will happen; it always happens. I am trying not to worry about it too much, but it seems like the higher up I am the harder the fall on the way down. But that is neither here nor there right now. Right now, I am happy and trying not to overthink.
I have really been slacking lately when it comes to writing. Today, I was able to pick up some of that slack and finally wrote an overdue book review for the lovely Brittney D. Herz. I was supposed to have it done a little while ago, but with my own book coming out I just got sidetracked. I was also able to finally write my guest post for the wonderful Christy over at WhenWomenInspire.com. If you have not checked out her site, I suggest you check it out. She always has the best posts that are very useful.
It feels good to be truly happy. I am not saying that I am happy every minute of the day, but overall I am doing better than I was even a month ago. I am just glad that I have something else to blog about besides how depressed I am.
Last week sometime, I was even able to hand in a BG article. It felt good, but at the same time it was like a sense of dread washed over me because I know that I will never be able to write for them as I once did. I would be extremely lucky to even get two done a week. Right now I am pushing one to two a month, which is way less than the required two a week. I love it, but I just feel like I cannot do it anymore. They have changed so much. I am going to try to keep holding onto it though, just in case.
Well, I have some other things that need my attention. Thanks for reading!
Until next time…
Samantha is the author of "My Bipolar Mind: You're not alone," she is also a freelance writer, blogger, and mental health advocate who runs and manages her own mental health blog MyBipolarMind.com.