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Samantha is a Blogger & Freelance Writer who lives in Allentown, Pennsylvania, USA. She is also a writer for the popular Pregnancy & Parenting Website BabyGaga.
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The Last Few Weeks: The Good & The Bad
I apologize, once again, for being MIA, but for some reason, I have not been able to write anything – no blog posts, no articles, not one damn thing – and it is driving me absolutely insane! I am a writer and a blogger so writing is what I do. I would also like to add that I am also going to be a published author in the near future!
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The Sun Will Shine After The Rain
I want to start by apologizing for my absence from this blog. If you read my last few posts, I was stuck in a depressive episode. But like with everything else, the sun will shine after the rain. I still have gloomy moments but, for the most part, I have been feeling a lot better these past few days. A lot of that has to do with an exciting email that I received from an intern at a publishing company.
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I’m Okay Right Now…
I’m okay right now. But who’s to say how I will feel by later on tonight, or even within the next hour. But I am okay right now, and that is all that matters to me. I have been preoccupied and so consumed with being in this bipolar low that I haven’t really had a moment where I have felt okay. I am trying to enjoy it while I can. I feel like I have a moment of clarity inside of my chaotic mind for some reason. Or maybe I am just having a bit of mania breakthrough the dark clouds which are a welcomed change to feeling so low all the time.
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| Lost In Thought |
Journaling helps but sort through a lot in my head. But when that’s not enough, I sometimes tend to turn to blogging. Creating a post for my personal blog section sometimes helps get things out in a similar way of journaling but, to me, it sometimes feels like it does so much more. So here is what’s been bogging me down internally:
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*Trigger Warning* A Poem | Self-Harm
*Trigger Warning* | These feelings bubble to the surface again | And I can’t help but to feel | Like my razor is my only friend…
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Behind This Smile…
Behind this smile, I find that I am slowly losing myself again. Is it depression? Is it anger? I have no idea. I have gotten so good at hiding behind a broken smile that no one else can see me slipping away again. Some moments I am fine. Then others, I am not. I have been rapid cycling because I never know when my bipolar disorder is going to betray me again. I never know when it’s going to crash me all the way down to the bottom instead of partially.
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A Poem | I Don’t Feel Like Functioning Today
I don’t feel like functioning today | So I’ll ignore all my calls | Until they fade away to my voicemail | Which I’ll never even bother to check anyway…
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My 32nd Birthday
My birthday has come and gone. It was on Saturday, August 4th, and I turned 32 years old. #BirthdayDrama
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A Poem | Her Pain
Her depression is swallowing her whole
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5 One Minute Meditations For Mindfulness
Today, I have some amazing one-minute meditations for you to try. They are even great for beginners and are so simple that anyone could try these! These will help relax your mind and body. It can also be very beneficial for stress and anxiety reduction.
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A Poem | Under The Knife
But what if I give my life to go under the knife?
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How To Do The Gratitude ABC’s
Gratitude ABC’s can work wonders for a variety of situations including anxiety or panic attacks, urges to use drugs or alcohol, anxiety-inducing situations, feeling low, or even as a distraction method. It is simple to do and requires only your mind and ability to think.
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How New Recovery Survivors Can Make Ends Meet Until Landing a Job
Addiction is linked to debt — sometimes even poverty — which can create a serious toll on the recovery survivor and, in some cases, their family. The main reason behind this unfortunate connection is that it’s likely fiscal responsibilities were put to the wayside in order to feed one’s addictive behavior. Not only does this lead to a loss of money, but a loss of relationships and jobs, too. If you’re a new recovery survivor in this position
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A Poem | When Insomnia Says Hi
Photo by Kinga Cichewicz on Unsplash When Insomnia Says Hi A Poem | Samantha Steiner Insomnia tries to say hi As I am screaming goodbye But she keeps popping into my head Reminding me of everything I’ve ever said Every stutter and stammer… Read More ›
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Guest Poem | We’ll Try Tomorrow
But my blanket is too wrinkled
And something dark is beneath my bed,
I’m supposed to be getting dressed now
At least that’s what mommy said.
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A Poem | 11 Months Sober
I never thought I could last this long
Without alcohol fueling me from inside
But today I am 11 months sober
And I’m feeling so much more alive
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A Poem | Forgetting The Present
Photo by Nathaniel Flowers on Unsplash Forgetting The Present A Poem | Samantha Steiner Remembering the past But forgetting the present I would love to reflect and reminisce on today But today seems so far away Yesterday’s memories have already begun to fade… Read More ›
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7 Warning Signs Bipolar Depression May Be Heading Your Way
Most people who have been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder typically don’t mind the upswings – the hypomania and mania. It’s the downswings – the bipolar depression – that can really get under a person’s skin.
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Engage Your Children in Hobbies They Will Learn and Love
Why Hobbies Are Important For Children.
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Late Night Thoughts | July 21st |2:30 AM
Its been an absolutely crazy week. I’ve been in the ER for my boyfriend a few times and once for myself as well. I have been having some major back pain again that even Kratom isn’t touching it. Either that, or I am not taking enough or not using the right strain for pain. I have been using white when I think red is for pain. Only problem is, red always puts me to sleep which I cannot do during the day.
