I’m okay right now. But who’s to say how I will feel by later on tonight, or even within the next hour. But I am okay right now, and that is all that matters to me. I have been preoccupied and so consumed with being in this bipolar low that I haven’t really had a moment where I have felt okay. I am trying to enjoy it while I can. I feel like I have a moment of clarity inside of my chaotic mind for some reason. Or maybe I am just having a bit of mania breakthrough the dark clouds which are a welcomed change to feeling so low all the time.
I never thought I could last this long
Without alcohol fueling me from inside
But today I am 11 months sober
And I’m feeling so much more alive
I’m miserable right now and struggling with my sobriety in the most horrible way at this very moment in time.
We Are Asking For Donations To Help My Bipolar Mind.
For anyone struggling with addiction…
I wanted to take the time to wish everyone a Happy Easter!
I am so proud of myself. On March 27, 2018, I was officially 7 months sober.
It’s National Poetry Day! One more poem before the day ends!
I have been trying to be more positive in general. Minus, a few setbacks.
Even though I was feeling blah I was still able to get a lot accomplished today.
Is this ever going to get an easier for me? Will I ever stop longing for, and missing the people that hate me the most right now?
Today has been pretty good for me while also marking my first 4th of July Sober. But I managed to make it through with of too much of an issue. I did not even get my a** to a meeting like I should have. Then again, I also did not get any sleep like I should have… I have not been to bed yet and I tried everything I could think of, besides illegal stuff and drugs and alcohol, to get me to sleep but to no avail.