Why do bad memories and things that have happened to us that are negative have to hurt so damn much?
Working through addiction recovery is never easy, but by entering into rehab, you have already taken one of the most difficult steps. If you can admit you have an addiction and are committed to staying sober, then you need to take some additional steps to care of yourself. One of the simplest ways to do just that and contribute to your recovery is to spend more time outside. How can the outdoors impact your recovery? Keep reading to find out more.
If you have relapsed after a prolonged time being abstinent from drugs or alcohol, it can feel like a failure. However, a relapse is not the worst thing in the world. Addiction is a disease for which there is no cure, only management. When you fall off the wagon, it’s just a setback that is a common part of the recovery process for many people. Resolving to recover from a relapse allows you to move on and commit to a lifestyle and choices that support your sobriety, goals and overall happiness.
It’s not often that I find myself waking up with energy while in a great mood. So, I figured I would switch it up and make a post while my depression is suppressed for this moment in time. I want to savor this moment and place it safely in my memory – hopefully in a place where I will remember it 😀 – so that when I am feeling down I can pull this memory out and know that sometimes things are okay.
My head has been completely crazy these past few days. Yes, I know my head is a mess most of the time anyway, but it just seems to have gotten worse. Lately, I feel like I am living in a fog. It doesn’t seem like this is my real life anymore. Money’s tight but other than that things are going well. My relationship is good, I am slowly getting back into writing, although, I do believe I took on more than I can actually handle at the moment. So, the question of the day is: Why do I still feel the way I do?
I want to start by apologizing for my absence from this blog. If you read my last few posts, I was stuck in a depressive episode. But like with everything else, the sun will shine after the rain. I still have gloomy moments but, for the most part, I have been feeling a lot better these past few days. A lot of that has to do with an exciting email that I received from an intern at a publishing company.
I’m okay right now. But who’s to say how I will feel by later on tonight, or even within the next hour. But I am okay right now, and that is all that matters to me. I have been preoccupied and so consumed with being in this bipolar low that I haven’t really had a moment where I have felt okay. I am trying to enjoy it while I can. I feel like I have a moment of clarity inside of my chaotic mind for some reason. Or maybe I am just having a bit of mania breakthrough the dark clouds which are a welcomed change to feeling so low all the time.
I never thought I could last this long
Without alcohol fueling me from inside
But today I am 11 months sober
And I’m feeling so much more alive
I’m miserable right now and struggling with my sobriety in the most horrible way at this very moment in time.
We Are Asking For Donations To Help My Bipolar Mind.
For anyone struggling with addiction…
I wanted to take the time to wish everyone a Happy Easter!
I am so proud of myself. On March 27, 2018, I was officially 7 months sober.
It’s National Poetry Day! One more poem before the day ends!
I have been trying to be more positive in general. Minus, a few setbacks.
Even though I was feeling blah I was still able to get a lot accomplished today.
Is this ever going to get an easier for me? Will I ever stop longing for, and missing the people that hate me the most right now?