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Posted October 5, 201817 Comments Our Personal Blog

Counting Sheep Until I Sleep…

Okay, so, I am not literally counting sheep until I fall asleep, but you get the gist.

Posted October 2, 20184 Comments Our Personal Blog

It is about 12:30 am and I am slowly getting drowsy – most likely thanks to the 300mg of Trazodone that I take at night – but my mind is running a thousand miles a minute. I figured I would take this opportunity to blog a bit.

Posted September 26, 20182 Comments Our Personal Blog

I Woke Up Like This… Happy

It’s not often that I find myself waking up with energy while in a great mood. So, I figured I would switch it up and make a post while my depression is suppressed for this moment in time. I want to savor this moment and place it safely in my memory – hopefully in a place where I will remember it 😀 – so that when I am feeling down I can pull this memory out and know that sometimes things are okay.

Posted September 24, 2018 Our Personal Blog

Through The Darkness…

My head has been completely crazy these past few days. Yes, I know my head is a mess most of the time anyway, but it just seems to have gotten worse. Lately, I feel like I am living in a fog. It doesn’t seem like this is my real life anymore. Money’s tight but other than that things are going well. My relationship is good, I am slowly getting back into writing, although, I do believe I took on more than I can actually handle at the moment. So, the question of the day is: Why do I still feel the way I do?

Posted September 18, 20182 Comments Our Personal Blog

The Last Few Weeks: The Good & The Bad

I apologize, once again, for being MIA, but for some reason, I have not been able to write anything – no blog posts, no articles, not one damn thing – and it is driving me absolutely insane! I am a writer and a blogger so writing is what I do. I would also like to add that I am also going to be a published author in the near future!

Posted August 27, 20183 Comments Our Personal Blog

The Sun Will Shine After The Rain

I want to start by apologizing for my absence from this blog. If you read my last few posts, I was stuck in a depressive episode. But like with everything else, the sun will shine after the rain. I still have gloomy moments but, for the most part, I have been feeling a lot better these past few days. A lot of that has to do with an exciting email that I received from an intern at a publishing company.

Posted August 13, 20183 Comments Poetry

Trigger Warning A Poem | Self-Harm

*Trigger Warning* | These feelings bubble to the surface again | And I can’t help but to feel | Like my razor is my only friend…

Posted August 10, 20185 Comments Our Personal Blog

Behind This Smile…

Behind this smile, I find that I am slowly losing myself again. Is it depression? Is it anger? I have no idea. I have gotten so good at hiding behind a broken smile that no one else can see me slipping away again. Some moments I am fine. Then others, I am not. I have been rapid cycling because I never know when my bipolar disorder is going to betray me again. I never know when it’s going to crash me all the way down to the bottom instead of partially.

Posted August 10, 20184 Comments Poetry

A Poem | I Don’t Feel Like Functioning Today

I don’t feel like functioning today | So I’ll ignore all my calls | Until they fade away to my voicemail | Which I’ll never even bother to check anyway…

Posted August 5, 20187 Comments Poetry

A Poem | Her Pain

Her depression is swallowing her whole

Posted August 1, 20184 Comments Poetry

A Poem | Under The Knife

But what if I give my life to go under the knife?

Posted July 27, 20183 Comments Poetry

Guest Poem | We’ll Try Tomorrow

But my blanket is too wrinkled

And something dark is beneath my bed,

I’m supposed to be getting dressed now

At least that’s what mommy said.

Posted July 27, 20189 Comments Addiction

A Poem | 11 Months Sober

I never thought I could last this long

Without alcohol fueling me from inside

But today I am 11 months sober

And I’m feeling so much more alive

Posted July 26, 20182 Comments Poetry

A Poem | Forgetting The Present

Photo by Nathaniel Flowers on Unsplash Forgetting The Present A Poem | Samantha Steiner Remembering the past But forgetting the present I would love to reflect and reminisce on today But today seems … Continue Reading A Poem | Forgetting The Present

Posted July 21, 2018 Our Personal Blog

Late Night Thoughts | July 21st |2:30 AM

Its been an absolutely crazy week. I’ve been in the ER for my boyfriend a few times and once for myself as well. I have been having some major back pain again that even Kratom isn’t touching it. Either that, or I am not taking enough or not using the right strain for pain. I have been using white when I think red is for pain. Only problem is, red always puts me to sleep which I cannot do during the day.