*Trigger Warning* | These feelings bubble to the surface again | And I can’t help but to feel | Like my razor is my only friend…
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Behind This Smile…
Behind this smile, I find that I am slowly losing myself again. Is it depression? Is it anger? I have no idea. I have gotten so good at hiding behind a broken smile that no one else can see me slipping away again. Some moments I am fine. Then others, I am not. I have been rapid cycling because I never know when my bipolar disorder is going to betray me again. I never know when it’s going to crash me all the way down to the bottom instead of partially.
A Poem | I Don’t Feel Like Functioning Today
I don’t feel like functioning today | So I’ll ignore all my calls | Until they fade away to my voicemail | Which I’ll never even bother to check anyway…
A Poem | Her Pain
Her depression is swallowing her whole
A Poem | Under The Knife
But what if I give my life to go under the knife?
Guest Poem | We’ll Try Tomorrow
But my blanket is too wrinkled
And something dark is beneath my bed,
I’m supposed to be getting dressed now
At least that’s what mommy said.
A Poem | 11 Months Sober
I never thought I could last this long
Without alcohol fueling me from inside
But today I am 11 months sober
And I’m feeling so much more alive
A Poem | Forgetting The Present
Photo by Nathaniel Flowers on Unsplash Forgetting The Present A Poem | Samantha Steiner Remembering the past But forgetting the present I would love to reflect and reminisce on today But today seems so far away Yesterday’s memories have already begun to fade… Read More ›
Late Night Thoughts | July 21st |2:30 AM
Its been an absolutely crazy week. I’ve been in the ER for my boyfriend a few times and once for myself as well. I have been having some major back pain again that even Kratom isn’t touching it. Either that, or I am not taking enough or not using the right strain for pain. I have been using white when I think red is for pain. Only problem is, red always puts me to sleep which I cannot do during the day.
Writing Balance Fail
Photo by Nick Morrison on Unsplash Writing Balance Fail I want to apologize for not being able to blog often right now. I have tons of great ideas for upcoming articles, but now I have been trying to catch up on my writing… Read More ›
It’s Been A Good Week
My mini-mental health break is over, and it’s back to the real world!
Fantastic Friday: It’s Been A Productive Week
I have had a fantastic week.
Choices
Today Is National Poetry Day!
Don’t Try This At Home
Makeup Fail
Cherish The Good Days While They Are Here
Cherish the good days while they are here, so you can try to remember them when the bad days appear
You Don’t Always Get What You Pay For
It’s been a long day today. This week has been extremely hectic. It’s always one thing after another with no room for a break. I’m hoping next week gets better and I actually have some time to stop and smell… Read More ›
Reoccurring Dreams
Have you ever had a reoccurring dream? Reoccurring dreams are dreams that are about the same exact thing or very similar dreams. These dreams can be delightful or they can be terrifying nightmares. Some people believe dreams have no meaning…. Read More ›
Depression In The Winter
If you live in an area of the world that has an ice cold winter, you may notice you go through some changes. Winter doesn’t affect everyone, but it does for many people. I tend to become more depressed and… Read More ›
Where Do I Go From Here
Becoming a writer has forced me to explore feelings and emotions that I have locked away many years ago. I didn’t have an easy childhood. I had so many bad things that happened to me as a child that it… Read More ›
Learning To Love Life
I really do feel like I am learning to love life for the first time. I pray that things continue to get better.
