Posted in Our Personal Blog Samantha Steiner Samantha's Personal Blog

Late Night Thoughts: Sick & Hopeless 🤦‍♀️

I honestly feel terrible right now – physically and mentally. I am so congested and it even hurts to breathe. It feels like it was not too long ago I had the summer flu that went around my area. I am absolutely miserable which always tends to bring my mood down quite a bit. But who doesn’t feel miserable when they are sick, right? I just want to take my meds, lie down, and go to sleep for the night. However, I am eagerly waiting for the edits for my book to come through my email since tonight is supposed to be the night.

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Posted in Bipolar Disorder Depression Mental Health Our Personal Blog Samantha Steiner Samantha's Personal Blog Self-Injury

| Lost In Thought |

Journaling helps but sort through a lot in my head. But when that’s not enough, I sometimes tend to turn to blogging. Creating a post for my personal blog section sometimes helps get things out in a similar way of journaling but, to me, it sometimes feels like it does so much more. So here is what’s been bogging me down internally:

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*Trigger Warning* A Poem | Self-Harm

*Trigger Warning* | These feelings bubble to the surface again | And I can’t help but to feel | Like my razor is my only friend…

Posted in Our Personal Blog Samantha Steiner Samantha's Personal Blog

Behind This Smile…

Behind this smile, I find that I am slowly losing myself again. Is it depression? Is it anger? I have no idea. I have gotten so good at hiding behind a broken smile that no one else can see me slipping away again. Some moments I am fine. Then others, I am not. I have been rapid cycling because I never know when my bipolar disorder is going to betray me again. I never know when it’s going to crash me all the way down to the bottom instead of partially.

Posted in Anxiety Bipolar Disorder Depression Insomnia Mental Health Our Personal Blog Samantha Steiner Samantha's Personal Blog Self-Injury

It’s Been A Rough Day

Every time I dare to hope, Everything just ends up getting crushed.

Posted in Bipolar Disorder Depression Insomnia Mental Health Our Personal Blog Samantha Steiner Samantha's Personal Blog

Vent: Feeling A Little Down This Morning

Venting Session

Posted in Depression Family Gary Bassler Gary's Personal Blog Mental Health Our Personal Blog

Mothers Day Blues

Mother’s day is a wonderful day for many people around the world who are celebrating their mother’s. Mother’s day isn’t like that for me… Read More

Posted in Bipolar Disorder Depression Mental Health Our Personal Blog Samantha Steiner Samantha's Personal Blog

When Depression Comes Back…

I don’t know how to fight back right now.

Posted in Anxiety Depression Family Insomnia Mental Health Our Personal Blog Samantha Steiner Samantha's Personal Blog

Racing Thoughts And Anxiety

I woke up at 4 am and almost immediately my thoughts started to race.