I know I already published one very long personal post earlier, but it is after midnight I still pretty awake so I figured I’d blog a bit more about whatever comes to mind. Although, I did just finally take my night time meds around 11:45 pm which is way later than I am used to taking them since moving back to my moms so hopefully they kick in before 1 am so I can still get an okay amount of sleep before my mom and her dogs get up in the morning.
It’s been awhile since I last posted anything personal on here. Last month, shortly after my wonderful Sea Isle City vacation with my boyfriend, my life was once again flipped upside down and uprooted. I’ve faced and struggled with a few major life changes this past month.
Even for couples who have lived happily together for years, being quarantined together can open up a whole new can of worms! It can sometimes rock even the smoothest of waters.
C’est la vie! I can’t control the cards that I have been dealt, just like I can’t control how other people act or think. I am trying to make the best of a bad situation. The best of a few bad situations, actually. Sometimes I feel like it’s one blow after another. I am doing the best that I can with what I have and I am finally okay with not being okay most days…
Welcome back to the 2019 Selfie Love Challenge hosted by myself here at My Bipolar Mind and the lovely Kelly over at Budding Joy. Be sure to check out Kelly’s blog and follow her to stay up to date on the #SelfieLove2019 Challenge. Also, if you are not a follower of My Bipolar Mind, please be sure to follow us as well! Today is Saturday, February 23, 2019. It is never too late to jump into this self-love/self-care challenge. If you haven’t been following along or just came across this challenge now,
“I have come face to face with the devil more times than I can count. I have lived life as an addict, and I have loved an addict, and I have been in love with addicts. Being pulled from both sides is so hard considering you have lived both loves. I honestly think that loving an addict is much harder than being an addict.” – Kayl (Continue Reading…)
What is verbal abuse? Can you define it? I myself have fallen victim to it and believed everything to be true. Verbal abuse is not only words used to belittle and hurt; it’s also used to control and manipulate. (Continue Reading…)
I have always been the bad one. The irresponsible one. The black sheep of the family. The one who’s always wrong. There is absolutely no point in me trying to defend myself or to speak my words. This is past words. This is dysfunctional and irreversibly broken right now.
I’ve been having a hard time processing Wade’s death and I couldn’t figure out why. I mean, yeah, he was my godkids father. So, yes, I feel beyond horrible with … Continue Reading What It Reminds Me Of & Other Stuff
I had a boringly eventful day. One might ask how something is boringly eventful. Well, what I mean by that is that I have had a pretty boring day (I … Continue Reading Fight Or Flight Complex: I Almost Always Take Flight
I am slowly starting to get my life back. One day at a time, one piece at a time, and one moment at a time.
I’ve wanted to post something for a while now, but just haven’t totally what to say or write. My life has been flipped upside down and I feel like I … Continue Reading Broken (Again)
Completely Heartbroken 💔 I’m drowning again, only this time I have a legitimate reason for being pulled under the water this time around. Sometime this morning when Mike, my … Continue Reading Completely Heartbroken
The Adventure Begins I am finally getting back to normal, and I love it! I was in such a bad spot with that depressive episode. Sleep was impossible, but … Continue Reading The Adventure Begins
I am too scared to say that my depression has lifted because I don’t want to get my hopes up. What I can say is that, for today, things are … Continue Reading Looking Up: For Today
Love You, Hate Me By: Samantha Steiner 9/19/16 @ 3:24am You make me laugh You make me cry You fill my heart With so much joy Then you tear … Continue Reading “Love You, Hate Me”
Another one of my articles got published on Vocal today and I thought I would share this one on here too. Please check it out and let me know what you think. You can leave a comment here. I am always up for some constructive criticism because I know that is the only way to improve my writing. I know it’s not my best work, but I don’t think it totally sucks either.
Introduction to my article “Families Who Survived The Odds”
I feel kind of ridiculous now for posting about how going on vacation is going to be hard for me because of much I am going to want to drink. … Continue Reading The Bottle Took Her
One of my articles was just published on Vocal today, and I thought I would share it on here. Check it out, maybe leave a comment here and let me … Continue Reading Link To My Article: First Date Deal Breakers…