I haven’t been keeping up with blogging lately — even though I have all the time in the world right now. I always seem to have time but the desire I used to have for writing, even journaling, just hasn’t been there since June… since my life fell apart again. My life is always falling apart, though. This is nothing new.
“Roughly 60 Million Americans are affected by [a] sleep disorder every year,” and I am one of them – as some of you may already know. Some night I have issues with insomnia, other nights my sleep is completely broken and restless. It is not very often that I actually get a good night’s sleep, regardless of how long I am lying in my bed for. I could be lying in bed for 12 hours and yet only get 4-5 hours of solid sleep. I even have a prescription medication that I take every night (almost) faithfully.
What goes up, must come down can easily define Bipolar Disorder. Meaning, after every high — or manic episode — a low is sure to follow.
I’m exhausted, but I can’t sleep. I am in so much physical pain that sleep should come easy, but it’s not. Insomnia has its grungy hands all over me and it’s refusing to let go. It probably doesn’t help the situation any that I finally remembered to take my nighttime meds around 1:45-2am.
So, random thought from last night… I was working on a blog post — that I never finished — and it was titled “3am Thoughts,” and I couldn’t figure out what time “late night” transitioned into “early morning” so I settled on just saying “3am.” I probably spent way too much time being consumed by this question than I should have. And I didn’t necessarily feel like resorting to using Google to solve yet another debate for me. If you think that this a strange thing to be consumed by, you would not want to know about the rest of the crap that gets stuck inside my head!
It is a little after 5 in the morning and I have been up for some time now. I went to bed around 9 pm and woke up at 2 am. Shortly after I finally fell back to sleep, I woke up around 3 am with a muscle cramp in my leg, also known as a “Charlie Horse.” Those are always fun, right? And I have been up ever since.
Natural sleep—or sleep that doesn’t require medication—is wonderful for both physical and mental health, but it’s something that many Americans battle for each night. Stress, anxiety, diet, illness, and health issues can all contribute to wakefulness, leaving us feeling groggy and unprepared to face life’s challenges the next day. (Continue Reading…)
I can’t seem to get my brain to function right this morning. I feel like I am trapped inside a thick fog and can’t navigate my way around. Perhaps this has something to do with only getting two hours of sleep. I even took all my nighttime meds and was still unable to stay dreamland. (Continue Reading)
I took my nighttime medications around 8:30 p.m. and thought that I would be asleep by now. I have journaled, read part of two different books, and played games on my tablet. While I am starting to feel a bit drowsy, it is not enough to be able to fall asleep. I intend to take an emergency sleep aid soon as it is almost midnight.
Changing sleep habits can be tricky; for many Americans, it’s hard to make big lifestyle changes without inducing anxiety or stress. It’s important, however, to make sure you’re getting adequate rest each night. Not only does it help boost your mood, it’s imperative when it comes to maintaining positive relationships and being productive at work or school. Your mental and physical health can be negatively impacted when you lack good sleep, making it harder for you to focus or cope with stress when it comes your way.
Read on for some great tips on how to change your sleeping habits for the better.
I am super excited because I received the final edits to my MS (manuscript) last night. Now, I guess it’s off to be formatted and will be done sometime early next week. I know I say this all the time, but this is such an amazing opportunity. My MS is coming together much faster than I anticipated!
If you are having issues with your sleep, you are not alone. There are an estimated 60 million people in America who suffer every year from the cunning sleep disorder known as insomnia.
40 Odd Things About Me… Continue reading to see what they are.
Once again, I am surprised that I am still awake after taking some many different things that could probably knock an elephant out. Okay, so, maybe I am exaggerating, but you get the gist. I may try adding a little CBD oil to tonight’s medication regimen. It worked well to help me calm down earlier, so perhaps it could help me wind down for sleep as well tonight.
Normal people are asleep right now. But as for me… I’m up like, “Yeah, let’s get productive!” I guess this may be the start of a hypomanic/manic episode. In all honesty, I don’t mind it as long as the agitation that is sometimes associated with mania doesn’t show up. I’d choose mania over a depressive episode any day!
Okay, so, I am not literally counting sheep until I fall asleep, but you get the gist.
It is about 12:30 am and I am slowly getting drowsy – most likely thanks to the 300mg of Trazodone that I take at night – but my mind is running a thousand miles a minute. I figured I would take this opportunity to blog a bit.
I have been having some horrible nightmares lately.
I am getting flashbacks to everything that has been traumatizing to me since as far back as I can remember.
Honesty is essential, especially when we are communicating with our psychiatrist or therapist.
Insomnia can happen to anyone
I wanted to take the time to wish everyone a Happy Easter!
I hate not being able to sleep. | I was extremely happy and thought I found a cure for my depression, but I was wrong.
My mind is wide awake and racing with a million things, but physically I feel exhausted.
Even though I was feeling blah I was still able to get a lot accomplished today.
Is this ever going to get an easier for me? Will I ever stop longing for, and missing the people that hate me the most right now?
1. Understand Your Sleep Needs It’s important to figure out the numbers – when and for how long do you need to sleep? Since wake-up times are non-negotiable, start from there and work backward to determine your true bedtime.
Today has been pretty good for me while also marking my first 4th of July Sober. But I managed to make it through with of too much of an issue. I did not even get my a** to a meeting like I should have. Then again, I also did not get any sleep like I should have… I have not been to bed yet and I tried everything I could think of, besides illegal stuff and drugs and alcohol, to get me to sleep but to no avail.