I apologize for not posting anything recently. I had been in a bit a depressive episode, which has hopefully finally come to an end.
I woke up at 4 am and almost immediately my thoughts started to race.
Marie F. shared her story with us earlier today so that I could share it with you.
Tips on how to deal with a loved one who is Bipolar.
Right now, I hate being bipolar.
I am learning to love my good days and not break down as badly on my bad days.
I recently just posted the first poem I have written in almost a year and have to say, it actually felt good to get back into poetry and release some emotion in a healthy way.
Christmas is a little over a week away. I still have some gift shopping to do. I am going to try my hardest to enjoy Christmas since that has always been my favorite holiday.
Christmas is the best time of year, but it’s also very stressful.
I just kept thinking about Max and about how much I really miss the little guy.
I am still wondering if I will ever get over the chaos that certain people instilled in me.
Between my family ditching me and then stealing my dog, the m/c, my mom putting my childhood dog down without them telling me or even asking me if I wanted to see him one last time, and everything else, I don’t want to do this anymore; I don’t know if I am strong enough to be able to do this anymore. But I guess I have to be.
What do I do from here?
Is this ever going to get an easier for me? Will I ever stop longing for, and missing the people that hate me the most right now?
I am always looking at the negatives and tend to overlook the positives.
I can’t believe everything that I have been through this year. It’s so surreal. Trying to think back to everything that’s happened feels hazy. Like I cannot even trust my own perception of time.