Depression

Merry Christmas Eve

Merry Christmas Eve I have spent days now typing up blog post after post and deleting it or never finishing it. I have been doing the same with journal entries; writing them and then ripping them out. The same with article and… Read More ›

Tis’ The Season

Christmas is a little over a week away. I still have some gift shopping to do. I am going to try my hardest to enjoy Christmas since that has always been my favorite holiday.

I Don’t Know If I Am Strong Enough

 Between my family ditching me and then stealing my dog, the m/c, my mom putting my childhood dog down without them telling me or even asking me if I wanted to see him one last time, and everything else, I don’t want to do this anymore; I don’t know if I am strong enough to be able to do this anymore. But I guess I have to be.

All Time Low

The past two days have been pretty crappy for me. Although, today I have had two good things happen, but I just don’t feel up to celebrating my small victories. However, I will say what they are. This morning I… Read More ›

Perception Of Time

I can’t believe everything that I have been through this year. It’s so surreal. Trying to think back to everything that’s happened feels hazy. Like I cannot even trust my own perception of time. 

Unlovable

This is my family, the people who are supposed to love me unconditionally obviously love me conditionally or no longer love me at all, in general.

Bittersweet Tragedy

This is a bittersweet tragedy. I gained back what I wanted, which was my life back, but I ended up losing something in the process. One step forward, two steps back.