My head has been completely crazy these past few days. Yes, I know my head is a mess most of the time anyway, but it just seems to have gotten worse. Lately, I feel like I am living in a fog. It doesn’t seem like this is my real life anymore. Money’s tight but other than that things are going well. My relationship is good, I am slowly getting back into writing, although, I do believe I took on more than I can actually handle at the moment. So, the question of the day is: Why do I still feel the way I do?
Blogging
The Last Few Weeks: The Good & The Bad
I apologize, once again, for being MIA, but for some reason, I have not been able to write anything – no blog posts, no articles, not one damn thing – and it is driving me absolutely insane! I am a writer and a blogger so writing is what I do. I would also like to add that I am also going to be a published author in the near future!
| Lost In Thought |
Journaling helps but sort through a lot in my head. But when that’s not enough, I sometimes tend to turn to blogging. Creating a post for my personal blog section sometimes helps get things out in a similar way of journaling but, to me, it sometimes feels like it does so much more. So here is what’s been bogging me down internally:
*Trigger Warning* A Poem | Self-Harm
*Trigger Warning* | These feelings bubble to the surface again | And I can’t help but to feel | Like my razor is my only friend…
A Poem | I Don’t Feel Like Functioning Today
I don’t feel like functioning today | So I’ll ignore all my calls | Until they fade away to my voicemail | Which I’ll never even bother to check anyway…
My 32nd Birthday
My birthday has come and gone. It was on Saturday, August 4th, and I turned 32 years old. #BirthdayDrama
A Poem | Her Pain
Her depression is swallowing her whole
A Poem | When Insomnia Says Hi
Photo by Kinga Cichewicz on Unsplash When Insomnia Says Hi A Poem | Samantha Steiner Insomnia tries to say hi As I am screaming goodbye But she keeps popping into my head Reminding me of everything I’ve ever said Every stutter and stammer… Read More ›
A Poem | Forgetting The Present
Photo by Nathaniel Flowers on Unsplash Forgetting The Present A Poem | Samantha Steiner Remembering the past But forgetting the present I would love to reflect and reminisce on today But today seems so far away Yesterday’s memories have already begun to fade… Read More ›
7 Warning Signs Bipolar Depression May Be Heading Your Way
Most people who have been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder typically don’t mind the upswings – the hypomania and mania. It’s the downswings – the bipolar depression – that can really get under a person’s skin.
Late Night Thoughts | July 21st |2:30 AM
Its been an absolutely crazy week. I’ve been in the ER for my boyfriend a few times and once for myself as well. I have been having some major back pain again that even Kratom isn’t touching it. Either that, or I am not taking enough or not using the right strain for pain. I have been using white when I think red is for pain. Only problem is, red always puts me to sleep which I cannot do during the day.
I Hope I Helped Save Her Life
I had gotten a message on Facebook from a young neighbor that used to live across the hall from me last night. She is only 18-years-old and she was in a lot of distress. She was telling me how horrible living was for her, and that she was planning on killing herself.
Writing Balance Fail
Photo by Nick Morrison on Unsplash Writing Balance Fail I want to apologize for not being able to blog often right now. I have tons of great ideas for upcoming articles, but now I have been trying to catch up on my writing… Read More ›
Lost On This Bipolar Rollercoaster Ride
I am somewhere on this bipolar rollercoaster ride, but I am not quite sure where. I think I may be stuck in the midst of a mixed episode. I have some symptoms of mania, yet some symptoms of depression at the same time. I will go from being highly productive and wanting to get things done to being the complete opposite. I am not exactly sure how I am feeling, and because of all the this, I am pretty sure this is a mixed episode.
L-Theanine: Does It Really Help With Anxiety?
Disclosure of Material Connection: Some links may be affiliate links. I may get make a few cents at absolutely no cost to you, ever. Money earned helps keep this site up and running. All opinions are my own. Thank you… Read More ›
8 Reasons Why You Should Learn To Love Yourself
There are so many reasons why we should love ourselves. You are the only you that you have, and more often than not, the only person you can really rely on 100 percent is yourself.
Sea Isle City Day 4: Forgetting The Ugly
I learned lesson today…
Sea Isle City 2018: Day 2
Other than my sporadic episodes of social anxiety, today has been okay for me.
Sea Isle City 2018: It’s Hurting Again
Letting My Negativity Run Rampant
200 Followers: Thank You!
Thank You!