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Before The Sun Rises

Image Credit: Unsplash Before The Sun Rises At this very moment, it is almost 5 in the morning. I woke…

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My Shifting Moods

Today started off rocky. I was riddled with anxiety about having to leave the house to go to my Primary Care Physicians office. It was horrible. Lucky for me, I found some of my CBD oil and that took the edge off quite a bit.

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A Waste of Space

A Waste of Space I have not been feeling like myself since last night, and trying to find joy in…

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A Storm Is Brewing…

A storm is brewing and a depressive episode is underway. I can feel it try to pull me under the surface as it surrounds me. I am trying to fight my way against it with everything that I have. I knew after the mania ended that I was headed in this direction. I was just hoping that it wouldn’t be so soon.

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Happy New Year! 2019… Here I Come!

I would like to wish everyone a safe and happy new year! I wish each and everyone of you guys and gals Peace, Love. and lots of Happiness in 2019. (Continue Reading…)

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2018 Is Coming To An End…

2018 is coming to an end and most people are planning out their New Year’s resolutions. After the chaotic year that I have had filled with so much loss and heartbreak, I am going into 2019 without many expectations. I am not going to say that this is the year that I will finally lose all this extra fluff that I carry around. I am not going to say that this is the year I get married (again). I am not even going to say that this is the year I hope they find a cure for bipolar disorder. (Continue reading…)

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Too Good To Be True

Too Good To Be True Chtistmas was really good for the first time in a while. I enjoyed the whole…

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Always Overthinking & Venting Session

I feel like it has been a long, exhausting day when I hardly did anything today but attended a doctor appointment, make phone calls, and went to Dunkin’ Donuts. I am still in tremendous amounts of pain, especially a few of my teeth that need dental work done. Both sides of my mouth hurt and I am in a great deal of pain during and after eating almost anything.

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Late Night Thoughts: Sick & Hopeless 🤦‍♀️

I honestly feel terrible right now – physically and mentally. I am so congested and it even hurts to breathe. It feels like it was not too long ago I had the summer flu that went around my area. I am absolutely miserable which always tends to bring my mood down quite a bit. But who doesn’t feel miserable when they are sick, right? I just want to take my meds, lie down, and go to sleep for the night. However, I am eagerly waiting for the edits for my book to come through my email since tonight is supposed to be the night.

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A Poem | Depression Unwinds

Depression Unwinds A Poem | Samantha Steiner Trying to stay positive But at times it gets tough Life just keeps…

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| Lost In Thought |

Journaling helps but sort through a lot in my head. But when that’s not enough, I sometimes tend to turn to blogging. Creating a post for my personal blog section sometimes helps get things out in a similar way of journaling but, to me, it sometimes feels like it does so much more. So here is what’s been bogging me down internally:

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*Trigger Warning* A Poem | Self-Harm

*Trigger Warning* | These feelings bubble to the surface again | And I can’t help but to feel | Like my razor is my only friend…

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Behind This Smile…

Behind this smile, I find that I am slowly losing myself again. Is it depression? Is it anger? I have no idea. I have gotten so good at hiding behind a broken smile that no one else can see me slipping away again. Some moments I am fine. Then others, I am not. I have been rapid cycling because I never know when my bipolar disorder is going to betray me again. I never know when it’s going to crash me all the way down to the bottom instead of partially.

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7 Warning Signs Bipolar Depression May Be Heading Your Way

Most people who have been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder typically don’t mind the upswings – the hypomania and mania. It’s the downswings – the bipolar depression – that can really get under a person’s skin.

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Lost On This Bipolar Rollercoaster Ride

I am somewhere on this bipolar rollercoaster ride, but I am not quite sure where. I think I may be stuck in the midst of a mixed episode. I have some symptoms of mania, yet some symptoms of depression at the same time. I will go from being highly productive and wanting to get things done to being the complete opposite. I am not exactly sure how I am feeling, and because of all the this, I am pretty sure this is a mixed episode.

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Late Night Thoughts: June 14th, 2018

I am back on the bipolar rollercoaster.

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One Moment At A Time

Holding On One Moment At A Time

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Still Feeling Uneasy

The uneasy feeling I blogged about the other day has yet to leave my side.

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It’s Been A Rough Day

Every time I dare to hope, Everything just ends up getting crushed.

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I’m On A Mini-Mental Health Break

I apologize for not posting anything recently. I had been in a bit a depressive episode, which has hopefully finally come to an end.