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Samantha’s Personal Blog

Why I Decided To Bring Back My Bipolar Mind

All I ever wanted to do was show people they are not alone.

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My Family

My Family I keep going back in my mind And trying to undo time Somethings you just can’t forget The people who are supposed to love you unconditionally Don’t want you And now there’s only a few people left I’m… Read More ›

Merry Christmas Eve

Merry Christmas Eve I have spent days now typing up blog post after post and deleting it or never finishing it. I have been doing the same with journal entries; writing them and then ripping them out. The same with article and… Read More ›

Tis’ The Season

Christmas is a little over a week away. I still have some gift shopping to do. I am going to try my hardest to enjoy Christmas since that has always been my favorite holiday.

Pure Frustration

I really hate being Bipolar sometimes. The only two things I like about it is the creativity and the manic highs when you feel like you are on top of the world.

I Don’t Know If I Am Strong Enough

 Between my family ditching me and then stealing my dog, the m/c, my mom putting my childhood dog down without them telling me or even asking me if I wanted to see him one last time, and everything else, I don’t want to do this anymore; I don’t know if I am strong enough to be able to do this anymore. But I guess I have to be.

All Time Low

The past two days have been pretty crappy for me. Although, today I have had two good things happen, but I just don’t feel up to celebrating my small victories. However, I will say what they are. This morning I… Read More ›

Morning Venting Session: 10/26/17

I just need to vent. It’s but such an irritating morning and it has only just begun. I didn’t get to sleep until close to 6 something in the morning and was rudely around 8 am to the very annoying sounds of water dripping. Let me just say that it is not raining outside but more so inside my apartment.

Perception Of Time

I can’t believe everything that I have been through this year. It’s so surreal. Trying to think back to everything that’s happened feels hazy. Like I cannot even trust my own perception of time. 

Unlovable

This is my family, the people who are supposed to love me unconditionally obviously love me conditionally or no longer love me at all, in general.

Two Sides Of Me

It’s like I have two sides of me; a happy side and a depressed side, and they happen to be stuck together right now. Or it’s more like good vs. bad internally.

Bittersweet Tragedy

This is a bittersweet tragedy. I gained back what I wanted, which was my life back, but I ended up losing something in the process. One step forward, two steps back.