All I ever wanted to do was show people they are not alone.
Samantha’s Personal Blog
I am going back to ‘My Bipolar Mind’… The new site address will be mybipolarmind.com.
A lawmaker in Ohio wants to have medics stop responding to people who overdose on heroin to save money.
I really do feel like I am learning to love life for the first time. I pray that things continue to get better.
I am learning to love my good days and not break down as badly on my bad days.
I recently just posted the first poem I have written in almost a year and have to say, it actually felt good to get back into poetry and release some emotion in a healthy way.
Christmas is a little over a week away. I still have some gift shopping to do. I am going to try my hardest to enjoy Christmas since that has always been my favorite holiday.
NF – Let You Down Music Video – YouTube
I just kept thinking about Max and about how much I really miss the little guy.
Every time things start to look up something always has to go wrong.
I know that things can get better if I continue to hang on to whatever I can to keep myself alive.
Despite having ups, I am still having a lot of downs and last night I just started to feel completely defeated by life.
I weighed myself for the first time in a little while, and it’s worse than I thought. I knew I had put some weight on, but not as much as I have. I am completely disgusted with myself.
I really hate being Bipolar sometimes. The only two things I like about it is the creativity and the manic highs when you feel like you are on top of the world.
Lyrics and Official Music video for Logic’s song, “1-800-273-8255.
I am still wondering if I will ever get over the chaos that certain people instilled in me.
Between my family ditching me and then stealing my dog, the m/c, my mom putting my childhood dog down without them telling me or even asking me if I wanted to see him one last time, and everything else, I don’t want to do this anymore; I don’t know if I am strong enough to be able to do this anymore. But I guess I have to be.
What do I do from here?
I just need to vent. It’s but such an irritating morning and it has only just begun. I didn’t get to sleep until close to 6 something in the morning and was rudely around 8 am to the very annoying sounds of water dripping. Let me just say that it is not raining outside but more so inside my apartment.
Is this ever going to get an easier for me? Will I ever stop longing for, and missing the people that hate me the most right now?
This is procrastination at it’s finest.
Hilarious note from my sister to the other inhabitants in her house regarding a war against rodent and humans.
I am going to try list three good things, or positive things, that happened today no matter how small it seems. I cannot expect to feel better if I don’t try to make any changes.
Do you know anyone that is in need of computer or electronic repairs?
I am always looking at the negatives and tend to overlook the positives.
I can’t believe everything that I have been through this year. It’s so surreal. Trying to think back to everything that’s happened feels hazy. Like I cannot even trust my own perception of time.
This is my family, the people who are supposed to love me unconditionally obviously love me conditionally or no longer love me at all, in general.
It’s like I have two sides of me; a happy side and a depressed side, and they happen to be stuck together right now. Or it’s more like good vs. bad internally.
This is a bittersweet tragedy. I gained back what I wanted, which was my life back, but I ended up losing something in the process. One step forward, two steps back.
I keep bouncing in between feeling hurt and sad to feeling extremely angry regarding the current predicament that I find myself in.