Its been an absolutely crazy week. I’ve been in the ER for my boyfriend a few times and once for myself as well. I have been having some major back pain again that even Kratom isn’t touching it. Either that, or I am not taking enough or not using the right strain for pain. I have been using white when I think red is for pain. Only problem is, red always puts me to sleep which I cannot do during the day.
I had gotten a message on Facebook from a young neighbor that used to live across the hall from me last night. She is only 18-years-old and she was in a lot of distress. She was telling me how horrible living was for her, and that she was planning on killing herself.
Photo by Nick Morrison on Unsplash Writing Balance Fail I want to apologize for not being able to blog often right now. I have tons of great ideas for upcoming articles, but now I have been trying to catch up on my writing for BG. Our views plummeted and I have […]
I am somewhere on this bipolar rollercoaster ride, but I am not quite sure where. I think I may be stuck in the midst of a mixed episode. I have some symptoms of mania, yet some symptoms of depression at the same time. I will go from being highly productive and wanting to get things done to being the complete opposite. I am not exactly sure how I am feeling, and because of all the this, I am pretty sure this is a mixed episode.
I was able to catch the sunrise this morning. It was strikingly beautiful. I am color blind so this may not be an accurate description of the sky, but it looked almost golden to me. It was simply breathtaking.
I’m miserable right now and struggling with my sobriety in the most horrible way at this very moment in time.
I learned lesson today…
Other than my sporadic episodes of social anxiety, today has been okay for me.
Letting My Negativity Run Rampant
Blogging From The Road: Sea Isle City Well, we’re on our way to Sea Isle City. We’ve been on the road for almost two hours and still have roughly 40 minutes to go. The GPS says well arrive in SIC around 9:31 am.
I am so excited because, in less than 12 hours, I will be on my way to Sea Isle City.
I am back on the bipolar rollercoaster.
Late Night Ramblings…
Holding On One Moment At A Time
Sometimes when we are feeling down, all we need is one person to tell us that they love us.
The uneasy feeling I blogged about the other day has yet to leave my side.
Something has invaded my life and taken over the controls for the day.
Today Was A Better Day…
Every time I dare to hope, Everything just ends up getting crushed.
I mentioned in a previous post that I wanted to try to quit smoking, and I have!
I am on a personal journey to try and be a healthier woman.
Today, I went for my echocardiogram and to get my 48-hour Holter monitor put on.
I want to apologize, yet again, for not writing anything recently. This time it’s for medical reasons.
My mini-mental health break is over, and it’s back to the real world!
I apologize for not posting anything recently. I had been in a bit a depressive episode, which has hopefully finally come to an end.
Why is it that us women spend so much time breaking each other down when we should be building each other up.
I have been having some horrible nightmares lately.
I don’t know how to fight back right now.
Ever since Monday night…
I am getting flashbacks to everything that has been traumatizing to me since as far back as I can remember.
Lucky me, I have received my third concussion in two years.
I wanted to take the time to wish everyone a Happy Easter!
I am stronger than this
I am so proud of myself. On March 27, 2018, I was officially 7 months sober.