I really hate being Bipolar sometimes. The only two things I like about it is the creativity and the manic highs when you feel like you are on top of the world.
I am still wondering if I will ever get over the chaos that certain people instilled in me.
Between my family ditching me and then stealing my dog, the m/c, my mom putting my childhood dog down without them telling me or even asking me if I wanted to see him one last time, and everything else, I don’t want to do this anymore; I don’t know if I am strong enough to be able to do this anymore. But I guess I have to be.
What do I do from here?
I just need to vent. It’s but such an irritating morning and it has only just begun. I didn’t get to sleep until close to 6 something in the morning and was rudely around 8 am to the very annoying sounds of water dripping. Let me just say that it is not raining outside but more so inside my apartment.
Is this ever going to get an easier for me? Will I ever stop longing for, and missing the people that hate me the most right now?
This is procrastination at it’s finest.
Information about mixed episodes for a person with bipolar disorder and the greatest risk is for someone in a mixed episode.
I am always looking at the negatives and tend to overlook the positives.
I can’t believe everything that I have been through this year. It’s so surreal. Trying to think back to everything that’s happened feels hazy. Like I cannot even trust my own perception of time.
This is my family, the people who are supposed to love me unconditionally obviously love me conditionally or no longer love me at all, in general.
It’s like I have two sides of me; a happy side and a depressed side, and they happen to be stuck together right now. Or it’s more like good vs. bad internally.
I keep bouncing in between feeling hurt and sad to feeling extremely angry regarding the current predicament that I find myself in.
I had a boringly eventful day. One might ask how something is boringly eventful. Well, what I mean by that is that I have had a pretty boring day (I spent about 90% of my waking day writing and doing… Read More ›
I am slowly starting to get my life back. One day at a time, one piece at a time, and one moment at a time.
Suicidal Kids: 14 Warning Signs Moms Need To Watch Out For. Article Link. Please read because you could possibly save a life if you know the warning signs of someone that is considering suicide.