Bipolar Disorder

Pure Frustration

I really hate being Bipolar sometimes. The only two things I like about it is the creativity and the manic highs when you feel like you are on top of the world.

I Don’t Know If I Am Strong Enough

 Between my family ditching me and then stealing my dog, the m/c, my mom putting my childhood dog down without them telling me or even asking me if I wanted to see him one last time, and everything else, I don’t want to do this anymore; I don’t know if I am strong enough to be able to do this anymore. But I guess I have to be.

All Time Low

The past two days have been pretty crappy for me. Although, today I have had two good things happen, but I just don’t feel up to celebrating my small victories. However, I will say what they are. This morning I… Read More ›

Morning Venting Session: 10/26/17

I just need to vent. It’s but such an irritating morning and it has only just begun. I didn’t get to sleep until close to 6 something in the morning and was rudely around 8 am to the very annoying sounds of water dripping. Let me just say that it is not raining outside but more so inside my apartment.

Perception Of Time

I can’t believe everything that I have been through this year. It’s so surreal. Trying to think back to everything that’s happened feels hazy. Like I cannot even trust my own perception of time. 

Unlovable

This is my family, the people who are supposed to love me unconditionally obviously love me conditionally or no longer love me at all, in general.

Two Sides Of Me

It’s like I have two sides of me; a happy side and a depressed side, and they happen to be stuck together right now. Or it’s more like good vs. bad internally.

Broken (Again)

I’ve wanted to post something for a while now, but just haven’t totally what to say or write. My life has been flipped upside down and I feel like I have lost so much. So, Mike left me. We are… Read More ›