Feeling a Bit Happier & Freer Than I Have in Months.

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The last time I wrote a personal post was on April 25th, 2023. And I would like to start by saying that since I officially gave up working for the popular gas station as a manager of the store, I have been dealing with a lot less stress and anxiety. It’s a freeing feeling to only have to work Monday through Friday for just 6 hours a day. I’m back to having time for myself and for a personal life once again.

April 25th was also the day that I started my new job, which has been going pretty well so far. I try to do what my boss asks of me, which isn’t ever anything off the wall insane or hard to do like I’ve had other employers ask of me. It’s a lot of getting things organized like employee trainings, employee files, and other kinds of paperwork. I got bumped up from being the Administrative Assistant to being the new Human Resources Representative.

When I finally turned in all my keys for the gas station, my DM (district manager) looked pissed. I’ve still been trying to get my former DM to remove my phone number from the fuel price change alerts but I am still getting them, so I am just going to forward every one I get straight to the DM until he removes my number from the list. Sounds fair enough, right?

I am so glad that tonight is a Friday night because I am, once again, off weekends which I like so much better. This past work week seemed like it just flew by, which is something I haven’t felt regarding work in so long. I’m making $800 less by switching jobs, but it’s worth it to get my mental health back on track.

I no longer have to worry about working 17+ days in a row with 12 hour shifts every damn day and that’s like a weight was lifted off of my shoulders not having to be on call and have to worry about if a staff gets sick, calls out, or quits. Thank the universe! I am so grateful that my new boss (which she used to be an old supervisor of mine back in the day around 2012) gave me this opportunity to work with her again.

Since I don’t have to be at work until 10am on weekdays, I have my alarm set for 8:25am, and most of this week I was up at least a half an hour to an hour before my alarm was supposed to go off. Starting at 10am beats having to start work at 4:30am any day! So now I can at least wake up properly before having to be at work which makes me a lot less tired at work throughout the day. Plus, I no longer have to go to bed before 7pm to wake up at like 3:30am.

Since my last post, I have been feeling happier and freer than I have been in almost about 10 long months or from whenever I started the manager position at the gas station last year. Don’t get me wrong, I am still bipolar and have highs and lows, but the bipolar depression end isn’t as bad as it’s been.

Well, I’m going to get ready to take my pills and head to bed. I’ve got plans with a very good friend tomorrow!