So, I’ve been a bit of a mess lately, Murphy’s law has been kicking my butt lately.
First off, a month ago Jon got his first full time job (Fri – Sun 12hrs) since having his double hernia surgery. It was going well that he was working and everything seemed to be going in the right direction. A week later he got a part time job (Tue – Thurs 8hrs, Mon and Fri any hrs he chooses to work).
Needless to say, I don’t see him much anymore but he’s making sure bills get paid. Now last week he called in on Sunday due to not sleeping for crap and this last Sunday he called in due to a cloudiness in his vision. When we woke up, we checked on the robo hamster (Houdini) and found him curled up dead, he was 2.5 yrs old. Jon’s vision was back to normal the next day.
I’m starting to wonder if he’s making up excuses cuz he’s so tired from working so much.
So we put an application in for an apartment (hoping we get it), so we can be on our own. So trying to save up money isn’t easy for us but we manage to do it well. I’ve been slacking with doing my stuff for my business and blogging due to so much going on in the real world and in my head.
I just need like a month-long vacation somewhere other than here. Maybe a cabin in the woods somewhere with an amazing view of a lake or beach.
As I’m writing this Jon’s passed out and I keep looking at him like why do u have to work 2 jobs and hardly spend time with me without being cranky cuz u been in the heat all day. I guess I’m never happy with him either being home from work for an extended amount of time and I’m not happy with him working all the time, which is why I hate having mental health issues.
I have survived alot of stuff but I am a warrior. I have bpd. I'm an admin for Sam's group. And I started my own small business.