Guest Post by Kayl| Holding Onto Hope (New Blog)

I would like to welcome Kayl back to My Bipolar Mind. Today, she is discussing her new blog and she shares what it’s all about and what her main goals are for starting her new blog – Holding Onto Hope. Please be sure to check out her blog and follow her to stay up to date on all her recent posts! Thanks – Samantha

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Hey everyone,

My name is Kayl. I have done a few guest blog posts for my bipolar mind. Recently I have decided that I wanted to create my own blog. I have been sitting on that thought of wanted to create one ever since I lost my daughter in November 2017. Which I believe I made a few guest blogs about. Recently I have been really struggling with the loss of my daughter and the loss of my fiancé (Richy – who is my daughter Octavia’s father). He died of an overdose. It will be 2 years on July 1^st, but to me his day that he left me will always be June 11^th. My life has been so hectic and crazy and dealing with these loses has been the hardest things I have ever had to deal with in my life. Everyday is a constant struggle. A few months ago, I was diagnosed with PTSD from these loses and I also suffer with depression, severe anxiety, and health anxiety (hypochondria).

It took me these 2 years to finally get into therapy. And just when I thought I was getting the help I needed my insurance said they would no longer cover my therapy. Which was upsetting because I really want and need the help. Unfortunately, I can’t afford to pay out of pocket to get the therapy so I have been stuck dealing with this on my own once again. It’s been pretty hard on me mentally and emotionally. I decided that I wasn’t going to let this define me anymore. Everyday can’t be a good day there will always be some bad day’s. I have to say that starting my own blog has helped a bit and I hope it continues to help and hopefully help someone else in passing time. Getting my feelings out of my head and into words and me actually seeing what I am feeling has been a huge help. Usually I am one to sit in silence and suffer alone. Now I feel like I’m not as alone.

My blog – Holding onto hope, follows my journey of losing my daughter, her father, my continuous sobriety from drug addiction, PTSD, and much more! My main goal is to help myself, along with helping anyone who finds this!