Good Morning: November 15, 2019
It is after 7 o’clock in the morning, and I have been up since 4:45 a.m. Surprisingly, I am in an oddly good mood. I am not going to complain about that! I woke up to use the bathroom and then had to take one of my mom’s dogs out, and I have been up ever since.
Maybe getting up early isn’t such a bad thing. I can probably get a lot done. Plus, I have an article I would like to work on.
As November 21st approaches, I am getting more and more nervous about my disability hearing. What if I get denied? What if I don’t? My life and ability to survive pretty much depends on getting approved.
For those of you who don’t know, I have been couch surfing since June and will most likely be on the streets if I don’t get approved. That is a scary thought. It’s frightening and I don’t know what my real options would be. My mom seems pretty confident that they will approve me because of my mental health and instability. I wish I could share in that confidence.
I really wish my best friend could be there with me but I know she has to work. Jaz was right when said I’d feel so much better if she could go! She is nervous yet excited for me!
(Another reason it was good for me to wake up early: I just had to wake my sister up for work because she never got up. 🤯😲😜 )
Vaping ban? What do you think…
So, to all my fellow US vapers out there, what do you think about the potential vaping ban or vaping “crisis”? (comment below) Personally, I think it’s a bad idea because so many people who have quit cigarettes (which, unfortunately, I vape and smoke cigarettes) will go back. I think people would resort to other things if they ban flavored vaping products. It would push the vapers to go out and buy a pack of cigarettes or worse. This is just my personal opinion.
If someone wants to vape, that is their own choice. That choice shouldn’t be taken away from them. Too many things get taken away from people these days, especially for women, but vaping shouldn’t be one of them. Add the warning labels to them if you have to; which most e-liquids already do have warnings on them — but don’t take it away.
I don’t pay full attention to what’s going on with the potential ban, but I pay enough attention to know it isn’t right. In Yonkers, (I think in New York, but please correct me if I am talking about the wrong state) the ban was actually passed and then appealed. Drinking is bad for your liver, but you don’t them trying to ban alcohol (again) because it created such a mess. 🤯 #DontBanVaping
Mini-Mental Break Down
A few days ago, I had a mini-mental break down after my mom’s one dog pulled me down the stairs and I landed sideways on my already sprained, but starting to heal, left ankle.
I was already having a really bad day. But I came back in my moms’ house and yelled, “I’m f***ing done, I quit, f**k this, I am leaving!”
I started crying and ranting and just needed to vent a bit. I cried for maybe half an hour and when I was done, I finally felt a little bit better. I feel kind of bad, however, because I pretty much took my anger out on my mom because I was sick of caring for her. She told me to just get out of the house and leave for a bit but I didn’t want to leave her alone since she’s still healing after her surgery. So, I stayed.
After I freaked out and got done crying, I felt so much better. I still wasn’t 100 percent stable, but I was definitely better than I was when I was going crazy.
Well, I think it is about time that I stop blogging and try to start my day. It is almost 8 o’clock in the morning now.
Good morning! I hope everyone has an amazing day! If you are fighting an internal or external battle today; Stay Strong! You are never alone!
Samantha is the author of "My Bipolar Mind: You're not alone," she is also a freelance writer, blogger, and mental health advocate who runs and manages her own mental health blog MyBipolarMind.com.