Late Night Thoughts: May 6th, 2019 🤔
So, random thought from last night… I was working on a blog post — that I never finished — and it was titled “3am Thoughts,” and I couldn’t figure out what time “late night” transitioned into “early morning” so I settled on just saying “3am.” I probably spent way too much time being consumed by this question than I should have. And I didn’t necessarily feel like resorting to using Google to solve yet another debate for me. If you think that this a strange thing to be consumed by, you would not want to know about the rest of the crap that gets stuck inside my head!
I was pretty busy this 5th of May, and the thought of getting drunk never really crossed my mind despite it being a major drinking day for so many people. I know it used to be that way for me. (On April 27th, it had been 20 months since the last time I was drunk.)
I had gone to two different meetings to help support two different friends; each of them going through a tough time. I am glad that they both felt comfortable enough to open up to me, especially since I have been feeling like a terrible friend thanks to my own situations and drama. Usually, one meeting was more than enough for me. But I knew these ladies needed it, and to be fair to each girl, i went to two almost back to back.
I got home from the first meeting around noon and then left for the second one about 30 minutes later. I didn’t get home until close to 4pm. I was going to try to go to my moms for dinner as well but I was incredibly beat. I may or may not have napped sometime afterward, however, my memory is pretty hazy so who knows. I know I ended up working on a guest post until I went to bed. And once my meds started to kick in, I was out.
Despite being wickedly tired last night, I did not sleep well at all. Every hour or two I would randomly wake up for about an hour every single time. Something like this always seems to happen without fail whenever I have to get up early. My alarm was set for 8am and it took me until almost 9am to finally drag myself out of bed. I just could not wake up properly no matter how hard I tried.
I finally forced myself to go to my therapy appointment today. I hadn’t realized how long its been since I last went until I was checking in for today’s appointment. My last session was over a month ago!
I know Mother’s Day isn’t until this Sunday, but once my boyfriend and I got my moms gigantic card (Seriously, it was huge!) and gifts last Friday, I wanted to give them to her immediately. So, we did! We got her a gift card to Home Depot and one to Lowe’s. I know, gift cards are impersonal but it’s what she wanted. And she loved everything!
Well, I planned on writing more but I’m extremely tired! Have a good night everyone!
Samantha is the author of "My Bipolar Mind: You're not alone," she is also a freelance writer, blogger, and mental health advocate who runs and manages her own mental health blog MyBipolarMind.com.