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My entire life I have been a people pleaser. I worry about everything I say or do. I worry about offending people. I worry about hurting others’ feelings while trampling over my own. Lately, I am sick of it. Lately, I have been saying how I feel or giving my honest opinion on situations when in the past I would tip-toe around everything out of fear or hurting others.

A prime example would be the fact that my best friend is going through it right now, and she asked if I thought she was a terrible person. I should have been like no, you are the best ever, everything you are doing is fine. But she asked my opinion, right? So I gave it to her. My boyfriend has said on numerous occasions lately, “This is not how you make friends and keep friends.”

To be honest, all my life I have listened to others opinions of me. I have let people tell me what they think of me while I later cried myself to sleep. Why? I am feeling a whole new kind of anger build up inside of me. I like to think that I am a kind person, but my buttons keep getting pressed. It’s nothing that happened to me today or yesterday. Lately, it’s just everything in general. 

Working on my 4th step had me down, but I am done feeling down because of how other’s treat or treated me. I am sure this is not the message my sponsor had for me when starting this step, but fuck it because I am here now. Feeling like this may just be a bipolar mood-related thing, but it may not be. Maybe it’s just finally feeling fed up. Maybe this mindset will cause me to lose friends or people in my life. Maybe I have already lost so much that I woke up one day and decided to say fuck it… I don’t care. 

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4 replies »

  1. This is so true, I recently after many years shared with my family feelings of hurt etc caused by them, etc etc it’s been a long long time since I ever spoke my mind, now I fear iv pushed them away. But I some how seem free. And I like it.
    Keep going xx

    Thank you for sharing your writing ✍️

    • Thank you so much for your comment. Im glad to know that I am not alone. I think i have just come to the point where its either speak my mind or continue to let everything bubble over. Xoxo thanks for reading!

  2. Girl, after reading most of your AMAZEBALLS BOOK (only 15 pgs. to go!) I know


    Do not, I repeat, do NOT let this bullshit, temp. mood swing screw you up—
    you have too much going for you now!!!!!!

    I mean all of this with love!

    • Thank you so much. I am so glad that you are enjoying it! Im excited to see what you thought of my book as a whole! I really, really appreciate your encouragement! Xoxoxo

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