Once again I have fallen behind on posting, but Samantha always gives me friendly reminders. I was so tired, but after my shower I didn’t feel tired anymore so I figured now would be a good time to post. There’s so much racing through my mind the past few weeks. It’s hard to put it all into words, but for starters, I’m no longer feeling depressed.
It’s so crazy how fast life can change and what will be thrown your way. Just six weeks ago I couldn’t picture myself being happy again. I was starting to feel like I would never be happy again. I still had my good moments like spending time with the kids, having fun at work and of course spending time with my bestie Samatha, but overall I was miserable.
All my life I’ve been through so many crazy and horrible things and yet I still kept a smile on my face and seemed fine. For the most part I always was. When something bad happened, I tried to fix it or forget it, but after all that time, it finally caught up to me. The only thing I could think of that caused me to fall so deep was the fact that this time it wasn’t something I could fix or forget.
I’ve come to terms with knowing that I can’t fix or change anything. What I can do is try my best at moving forward and not looking back. I was reading through all of my old blog posts and almost all I seen was sadness. I never want to let myself get like that again. I love being a happy fun person. I miss that person!
It feels amazing to slowly start feeling like myself again and I won’t be looking back!
Thanks for reading,