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Not Feeling My Best Today

Not Feeling My Best Today

I guess WordPress is going to be having a new editor so I figured I would play with it and check it out. Plus, maybe writing a bit will make me feel better. I didn’t fall asleep until like 5:30 p.m. and I woke up around 11 a.m. I was in a pretty good mood to start and then part of my plans got canceled, I felt kind of bothered by social interactions, my stomach started to hurt, and the list just goes. I feel like just canceling the rest of my plans for today because I honestly don’t feel like socializing and being around others today. 

I already took my anti-anxiety med (Buspar) and now I just took some CBD oil too to see if that would help with my agitation. I just don’t want to people today. I don’t want to adult today, either. I want to do something because I am ridiculously bored, but at the same time everything I could possibly think of doing just sounds so annoying, which further increases my agitation. 

Feeling like this just kind of came out of nowhere. I was okay when I first got up, but now I just want to punch someone in the face. I tried to get my best friend to go out and do something, but I know I bug her all the time. This further increases my feelings of being a burden to everyone (which I slightly touched on with last night’s post. I’m just not in a good mood right now, and I hate that I feel this way. I swear, bipolar agitation is the worst. 

I think the CBD oil worked some magic a tiny bit, but I am still really agitated. I have like two hours to cancel my plans because my sponsor is supposed to pick me up around 5pm. I did send her a message telling her that I don’t feel good today, so I guess I will see how this plays out. 

Until Next Time…

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Samantha is the author of "My Bipolar Mind: You're not alone," she is also a freelance writer, blogger, and mental health advocate who runs and manages her own mental health blog

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  1. OMG, I relate to this sooooo much! Both the people thing and the CBD thing!

    I started getting into CBD oil a lot a couple months ago. I even got a bottle of “VET CBD” for Lucy, my dog, as she has a lot of separation anxiety and hates other dogs! I didn’t really notice anything with either of us. Maybe another brand might work better.;)

    I hope you’re feeling a LOT better now. Let us know how yoy’re doing when you can! 💖

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    • I started getting into CBD oil awhile ago too! There are so many different kinds and a few different strengths. I started using Koi Naturals in Spearmint @ 500mg and I must say that it has been my favorite! I either put the drops under my tongue or in my vape pen!

      Aww I love animals! I have a kitty named Buddy.

      I am feeling a lot better. Thank you so much! I ended up spending time with my best friend and then came home and slept until 1am!

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      • Hey my dear! I know there are tons of CBD oil brands now – I live in the cannabis mecca: Santa Cruz County. We have dispensaries on every street, it seems – I’m not exaggerating. So there are a lot of local options. I tried Jade Nectar – it is CBD-only. Since that didn’t seem to do anything, I’ll have to remember Koi Naturals.

        I’m so glad you were feeling better yesterday (I hope you still are feeling good – I’m going to catch up on your blog posts tomorrow!) and that’s awesome you were able to hang with your best friend!!

        Tell Buddy I said hi – I’m so glad you have him – I love animals too! 😺😺😺😺

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        • Hi sweetie! I am glad to hear from you! I was doing well most of the day — more on the hypomanic end, but one little event triggered my bipolar agitation. I think I am going to blog about it later because it really bothered me.

          I was lucky with my CBD oil brand I buy because it was the first one I ever tried and it worked like a charm. If you do decide to try it, let me know what you think for sure! I hope that you are doing well! I was going to email you, but I didn’t want to be a bother! Lol. I am always worried about bothering people too much.

          Buddy meowed, “Hi!” Haha. I’m so glad I have him too! I had a dog that I miss dearly (that’s a story for another time) and when I kept crying over him my boyfriend’s daughter surprised me be giving me Buddy. Pet’s are great for mental wellness! Give Lucy hugs for me! I bet she is gorgeous!

          Samantha 💖💕😍

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