Not Feeling My Best Today
I guess WordPress is going to be having a new editor so I figured I would play with it and check it out. Plus, maybe writing a bit will make me feel better. I didn’t fall asleep until like 5:30 p.m. and I woke up around 11 a.m. I was in a pretty good mood to start and then part of my plans got canceled, I felt kind of bothered by social interactions, my stomach started to hurt, and the list just goes. I feel like just canceling the rest of my plans for today because I honestly don’t feel like socializing and being around others today.
I already took my anti-anxiety med (Buspar) and now I just took some CBD oil too to see if that would help with my agitation. I just don’t want to people today. I don’t want to adult today, either. I want to do something because I am ridiculously bored, but at the same time everything I could possibly think of doing just sounds so annoying, which further increases my agitation.
Feeling like this just kind of came out of nowhere. I was okay when I first got up, but now I just want to punch someone in the face. I tried to get my best friend to go out and do something, but I know I bug her all the time. This further increases my feelings of being a burden to everyone (which I slightly touched on with last night’s post. I’m just not in a good mood right now, and I hate that I feel this way. I swear, bipolar agitation is the worst.
I think the CBD oil worked some magic a tiny bit, but I am still really agitated. I have like two hours to cancel my plans because my sponsor is supposed to pick me up around 5pm. I did send her a message telling her that I don’t feel good today, so I guess I will see how this plays out.
Until Next Time…
Samantha is the author of "My Bipolar Mind: You're not alone," she is also a freelance writer, blogger, and mental health advocate who runs and manages her own mental health blog MyBipolarMind.com.