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11 Months Sober

A Poem | Samantha Steiner

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I never thought I could last this long

Without alcohol fueling me from inside

But today I am 11 months sober

And I’m feeling so much more alive

 

I can’t say that I never miss it

Even after all this time

Because that would be a lie

But with every passing day

I’m feeling so much stronger

I can feel it deep inside

 

Just one more month to go

And I’ll be sober one whole year

 

I’ve learned to try to take things

One day at a time

And that I’m still me

I have my own identity

I no longer need alcohol to help me hide

 

The hardest part about not drinking

Is that I have to learn to feel what I’m feeling inside

Without using Vodka to mask my emotions

 

I’ve come so far from where I’ve been

Relationships are healing

From all the damage I created

 

I’ve learned to say I’m sorry

And I have actually been able to find

A tiny piece of self-love

That I once thought was impossible to obtain

 

I’m not exactly where  I want to be just yet

But I’m glad I’ve made it this far

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