Tell Me You Love Me…
Sometimes when we are feeling down, all we need is one person to tell us that they love us. It doesn’t matter who, as long as we hear those words. It’s like; tell me you love me… Sometimes we also just need someone to tell us that it is going to be okay, that we are not alone, or that we are worthy of being alive.
I was feeling really down all morning and I had these dark thoughts flowing through my mind. I tried to push them away until the drove me f-ing insane. When I am all alone, these dark thoughts sometimes take over my entire mind and consume me when I am feeling really low. It’s like they blur the truth and reality with their lies. Things aren’t even really bad for me right now, so it’s hard to understand why I am feeling so miserable when everything is actually okay. Welcome to my bipolar mind.
I was writing out a really long depressing note and I just keep thinking, “I need one person to tell me that I am loved, that I am not worthless. Just one person. Anyone.” Shortly after that was stuck in my head, my best friend called me. It was for her to vent because she’s having a bad day, which is okay because it got me out of my head for a bit. But she told me she loves me before we got off the phone. That’s all I needed to hear. It’s the simple things in life that keep my blood pumping. My boyfriend actually just called and told me he loves me too. I thrive on those words. Sometimes we just need the smallest thing in life to hold on for just one more day.
Sometimes I feel alone when I know that I’m really not. I know there are tons of people out there that feel the way I was feeling earlier. To anyone reading this, if you feel like giving up; You are not alone. You are loved, and you are worthy. Look for one thing to hold onto and hold on to it as tight as you can. Take things one day at a time.
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Until Next Time…
Samantha is the author of "My Bipolar Mind: You're not alone," she is also a freelance writer, blogger, and mental health advocate who runs and manages her own mental health blog MyBipolarMind.com.