Dealing with a loss is one of the hardest things to face, especially when it’s someone your close to. Death can be unexpected, but even when it’s not, it’s still hard to deal with. As you may know, I posted a while back about a loss that I experienced. In my situation, the loss was unexpected and shocking. The father of my children, passed away from a drug overdose. I had no idea that he was using heroin, but now that I really think about it, I may have been in denial.
I talked with him all of the time, even the morning he passed away. I was at Samantha’s house when I got the phone call and I was in complete shock. I raced over to his house to speak with the police and get some answers. I broke down crying, seeing him there like that was one of the hardest things I ever faced in my life. To this day, it still feels unreal. It been four months and some days I still feel like I can’t accept the fact that he’s gone. They say we go through different stages of grief and it’s true. I’ve dealt with so many different emotions that sometimes I don’t even know how to feel about it. I get angry sometimes that I didn’t realize he was struggling with addiction. I wonder if I could have helped him in some way.
I randomly break down and cry when I look at my children and wonder how they must be feeling. It breaks my heart that their father won’t ever be there for them again. He won’t get to see them drive for the first time, graduate high school and college, get married, or ever see their children one day. They say these things get easier with time, but so far I can’t say for sure. I can say, I’m not in as much pain as I was when he passed away, but the pain is still there. I still cry and become emotional at random times. Maybe it does get easier and this is how easier feels.
My children are in group therapy at school with other children who have experienced a loss of a loved one. Everyone deals with death differently, but no matter what you are going through, always remember, if your feeling like hurting yourself, please get help. You don’t have to face this alone. There are so many options such as therapy, support groups, friends, family, and were always here for you. There’s not a certain way of dealing with death since everyone deals with it differently; you need to find what works best for you. Try to focus on the happy times with your loved one and the great things about them. They wouldn’t want you to give up on life and be sad forever.
Take time off of work to deal with your emotions if you need to. Some people deal with it better when they work, to keep their mind off of it, but at one point, you will need to deal with it or you may end up having a breakdown. Remember to take care of yourself as much as you can. Get rest, eat, and talk with your loved ones about how your feeling. If you feel you ever need help dealing with a loss or need someone to talk to, always remember we are here for you. You can always email us at firstname.lastname@example.org.
Here’s two numbers you can call 24/7 if you need help:
Crisis Call Center 1-800-273-8255
Crisis Texting 741-741