Why I Decided To Bring Back ‘My Bipolar Mind’:
Ever since I changed the site to Clever Thoughts I had this nagging feeling deep inside of me. I may not have has as many follows (which I still don’t have a lot), on My Bipolar Mind, but it was mine. Something I did that I was actually proud of. My blog was my sanctuary, and my place to vent when I needed too. I had people message me and/or leave comments about how the information I was posting and sharing my own journey had helped them because the could relate.
Some people found the stuff I posted to actually be useful. I was able to show people they were not alone. That’s all I ever wanted to do was show people they are not alone, even if it was only one single person I was able to help, that was okay as long as I was able to help someone.
The entire mental health/addiction topic means a lot to me, it is something that I am passionate about. It is something I know and live through every day. I would rather help someone then just entertain them for five minutes while they read an article one time that they will just forget about in five minutes – at least on my blog that is. Otherwise, I want people to be entertained when it comes to things like my articles on BabyGaga because that is my job.
I had my own set of reasons for wanting to switch this blog to Clever Thoughts. Things like wanting to turn it into something that I could make a profit off of. I had certain expectations and ideas that were far-fetched, to the point where it was more of a manic thought that wasn’t very logical and achievable at that point in time. Months went by and I wasn’t meeting my own expectations and the thoughts about how this blog used to be kept eating at me for letting that go. Changing things seemed like an amazing idea to me, and it was something I could do with some of the most amazing people in my life. But it backfired.
Then last night, the need to change the site back to My Bipolar Mind was incredibly strong and it was more like a compulsion, something I had to do and it had to happen at that very moment. At that point, nothing could have changed my mind. It just sucks that I hurt someone I love and care about in the process, and I didn’t care at first. I apologized to the said person today and I hope they forgive me because I was just an outright bitch.
I am going to continue posting my journey and struggles with my mental health issues, along with other things in my daily life. Blogging is like journaling for me, and it is also a coping mechanism.
Samantha is the author of "My Bipolar Mind: You're not alone," she is also a freelance writer, blogger, and mental health advocate who runs and manages her own mental health blog MyBipolarMind.com.