I have been meaning to put a post up for a while now. I have had more than enough time lately to post something new since I’ve been slacking when it comes to my writing career, but I just have not gotten around to it. I lose track of time and before I realize it, it’s the end of the day.
I wouldn’t even be able to tell you what all I exactly do in a day either. Half the time I end up spending hours “working” on an article when in reality I have been procrastinating and trying to figure out what to write. I haven’t written all that many articles since Christmas and it is starting to worry me that if I do not step up my game, BabyGaga will no longer let me write for them.
I took a week off when my dad was in town and just have not had the motivation or ambition to go back to writing seven days a week. I need to find that motivation somewhere and soon. I really need to try to work harder.
I still have my ups and downs, but nothing like how it was just a few short weeks ago. I finally feel like I am doing okay, sometimes maybe even better than okay. I am not nearly as depressed as often as I had been over the past few months. There are some days that I may even feel happy or okay for the entire day. It is not as often as I would like, but I am bipolar so obviously, I will never be 100% okay anyway.
I am learning to love my good days and not break down as badly on my bad days. There are still certain things that trigger my moods to shift from laughing to crying instantaneously. There are still even times my mood will flip like something just hit a switch inside of my brain that will set me off into spontaneous highs, lows, or mixed episodes that don’t even seem to have a trigger at all. That is to be expected though. Again, I must say, that they are not as bad as they were. My anxiety is also not as bad as it was.
I know this is not a good thing to do when you are diagnosed with bipolar disorder, but I have been playing around with different supplements and vitamins to help with my mental health symptoms and I have found a few that have been amazing for me. A few of them are called Gaba (gamma-aminobutyric acid), Gaba-Val, and 5-HTP. I have tried other stuff that I was not crazy for but for me, these seem to help immensely. They are all natural things that you can buy on Amazon and the Gaba can actually also be found at GNC. I have been playing around with doses and doing research online to see what works best for me.
I have had almost no side effects or anything bad to say. Regardless of anything though, whatever I am doing is helping me so much. I wish I would have found these things sooner. I am not trying to promote any of these things, I just wanted to share what has been helping me. Some of the ways these supplements have helped me has been that it’s boosted my mood, my appetite is a bit more suppressed, I am less anxious, I don’t overreact to certain things as much, I am sleeping better than I was before, I am a bit more focused and active, a bit more social as well.
On a good note, my dad got hired with BabyGaga and he even has the same editor as my sister Crystal and I. I am so proud of him. My dad has always dreamed of being a writer, just like I have, and now he is one.
At this point, all I can do is hope that things will continue to get better. 🙂
Samantha is the author of "My Bipolar Mind: You're not alone," she is also a freelance writer, blogger, and mental health advocate who runs and manages her own mental health blog MyBipolarMind.com.