The feature picture describes me so well. It’s like I have two sides of me; a happy side and a depressed side, and they happen to be stuck together right now. Or it’s more like good vs. bad internally. I should really be reading that book for the book review/author interview, but I am exhausted from not sleeping well, but at the same time I cannot go to bed either, It’s a toss-up and everything keeps going back and forth.
I’m happy I at least got to spend some time with @jazminegonzalez87 today and help her on her article. And I am like excited that she still wants to do this website with me. I am glad to be able to do something that could possibly turn out so good with my Best Friend. She needs something good in her life right now, and I am hoping that I can turn this into something good. Something worthwhile. I put a lot of time into this site, and I know it doesn’t really look it, but I have. I have 159 posts that I have to sort through and organize into categories. It’s a little challenging because I want to have everything done by Monday but I don’t really see that happening.
I have moments where I feel totally happy, and then I start to remember everything that has just happened lately, or I will think about Max and just get sad about it. Or instead of sad I will get really angry and honestly think about plotting revenge, but then I have to tell myself that whatever I would do wouldn’t be worth it because I get some borderline psychotic ideas… but that’s just my bipolar disorder type psychosis with all the other symptoms that accompany it.
I actually did start reading some of that book, and the part this author put for the ‘Dear Reader’ section was astonishingly amazing. It really spoke to me on a deeper level. It was like he was talking directly to me and no one else because it is entirely relatable and it’s like, wow. I can’t give many details until the review is released, but what I can say is that it is mental health related and the author is a mental health advocate and his book comes out November 1, 2017, I believe he said.
As of right now, I would totally recommend it to anyone who has ever dealt with any mental health issues. It looks like I am going to have to add a book review section to the site. Maybe I will do that in a bit. I may actually stay up for a while tonight just so I can read some more of this book. I will keep everyone posted about when they interview and post will be completed. I still feel incredibly honored that he chose me, of all people, to do this. This author makes me want to revamp the book I wrote when I was 19-years-old. Well, I guess I better to reading!
Samantha is the author of "My Bipolar Mind: You're not alone," she is also a freelance writer, blogger, and mental health advocate who runs and manages her own mental health blog MyBipolarMind.com.